4 more years!

I am pretty consumed with the upcoming election, its on Tuesday, today is Sunday.
It is safe to say that with all the shit that is hitting the fan back home, I am an anxiety ridden mess. What would Romney's America look like? Certainly not a place I would want to go home to. I avoided it during the George Bush Jr nightmare. Yikes I say. Since I live in Scotland & I have failed to make it to the Democrats Abroad meetings to actually meet some other Americans, I feel pretty isolated.
I usually feel pretty isolated anyways, having 2 very long term friendships meltdown this last summer isn't really helping, nor is the feeling that Im being totally taken advantage of at work. I have left the city 2 times in 2012. I am about to apply for my Citizenship & I feel more trapped & stuck than ever before. Shit feels grim, however - 1 cool thing has happend on a superficial level. I seem to be being stalked by a group of hairdressers at a Salon near my job. They love my hair, my fringe one would say here instead of bangs & they want to colour / cut / mess around with it.
I have realised ( recently ) that I need constant 
positive reinforcement for everything. I require being in a position to do well & I must be told I am doing so- this applies to everything....

Is it that Im a Gemini, or a Monkey... or an only child? Why? All I know is that it aint happening here apart from these kooky hair dressers! My dear Hubs is perhaps a little to close to me to see how shit actually makes me feel (locally), and of course he is way more optimistic about the future & how to "get there"- not to mention he has the band to get him outta here a few times a year.
I have a few really good ideas & goals but seem to have no one to back me up, where is my cheerleader, my motivational speaker?

Well I have 4 days off work, a roof over my head & enough supplies. Its not a hurricane & I don't have a cold... I got a brand new clipboard & Im gonna get some shit done! Wish me luck, more steps forward than back & maybe I can get my shit together long enough to update the world on my accomplishments....
And seriously folks, 4 more years!