I feel like shit.

I have been feeling really down the last 2 days & there is no real reason for it- its not that time off month or anything like that. I feel so very uninspired by Edinburgh- how is this possible? I literally feel as if I am missing something that other people see. I think its beautiful here and all that but try as I might, most days I cant see past the gray buildings, the shoppers & the general suit vibe. I don't mean to or want to sound like a total ingrate ( even though I do) as I am very lucky in a lot of ways, I just feel like Im missing something.

I stopped looking for "something" here awhile ago & things have improved a lot but I still get the odd day where I get really pissed off or sad etc. Is it just that I have failed to really become friends with any one group of people or is it that they stopped asking forever ago as we were perpetually "working" & "broke" at the same time?

I come from a really different place from most people I know here & I am starting to wonder if that is the problem? When I lived in Prague we all had that fact in common so I suppose it was much easier to make friends. Everyone was from someplace else & everyone thought Prague was really great so we all liked to do the same type of things. Like drink Czech beer. Maybe Prague ruined Edinburgh for me?

Or maybe Im just getting old? Or maybe for once all the "older" people I try to hang out with are actually acting old and responsible as opposed to acting really irresponsible.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!