reflective reflections

Since today is 9/11 I thought I might flash back to where I was when the shit hit the fan... I woke up in Denise & Al's old apartment at the house on Jackson street above Skeet's house. I can't remember if they were there or not. We (Im thinking me & Skeet) had been partying pretty heavily the night before & my ex-boyfriend Thomas called from the Pizzeria around 10am to say that there had been some sort of terrorist attack & Indiana may be a target. I had no idea what he was talking about but I seem to remember getting up & going downstairs to check the t.v. & then I remember going downtown to the Pizzeria to watch what was happening from there. I can't remember why there was this thought Indiana would be a target. To be honest I really can't remember much else about the day except watching the same footage over & over... Im not really sure what to say, clearly shit did not go down ( no pun intended ) the way they say it did & that is disturbing. There are a million 9/11 shows on this weekend & after Ricky fell asleep during "Gone with the Wind" I decided to watch one. I caught the end of a show that was about heros of 9/11, 2 guys that got all these people out of lifts & down stairs etc but both didn't make it themselves. Ricky woke up & we tried to watch a show about children of 9/11 victims but I had to turn it off. It was too f*****g sad (for lack of a better word) for my current hungover state & Ricky was in danger of getting really angry. At the risk of sounding totally shallow, it was not cool-it does not make sense. My heart goes out to everyone that lost someone...Fuck George Bush & the horse he rode in on!

Another new day.

Finding that moving on feels good... Today I moved on from my fundraising job-only because I had too, for me. Lots of other reasons there, none of which are really that negative. I think that the friends I made there I shall keep for a long time. I know the skills I developed there will travel with me to the next step. The important thing is taking the next step. Im not in a place where I can feel stuck. I hope to continue with employment aimed towards helping others & I think I could do more.


So long for now "FUNdraising"!

More adventure awaits me & I embrace it ! ! !

Diane Moon!

Thinking this might be my next tattoo...for my Aunt,she would have found it pretty hysterical ...now what location?

A weekend alone.

Cant seem to get a view out!

Missing a smaller community, one I can see healthy things in..

Homesick again.

Tuesday thoughts!

Right, so a few thoughts on my new job.... or rather the folks Im trying to stop in the street, keeping in mind that I used to be an expert at dodging the fundraisers! Straight up, I was a pro- I don't think I even realised they don't want cash till I got this job!

1) Pretending we are not there only makes you look REALLY silly. The looking straight ahead & ignoring us method makes you look like such an unhappy person. Its a shame you wont just stop & have a chat, worse case scenario is that you DO NOT sign up, however the usual outcome of that is still walking away with a smile on your face.

2) Telling us in passing that you already donate to charity only makes you feel better for a few seconds.. It does very little for me.

3) Yelling at us that "we are out here everyday" also makes you look like an unhappy person, if you paid attention you might realise that its not "us", its a different charity- "we" don't pick our spots, hence me going to Bathgate tomorrow, for the 3rd time in a week and a half.

4) "No thank you" is a really, REALLY bizarre thing to say to a fundraiser- I might understand if I tried to offer you mouldy cookies?!

5) Hissing is not cool unless you are Gollum, so don't do it.

6) "Im busy" is a truly lame thing to say-everyone is busy, come up with something just slightly more truthful, perhaps try something like..." Im shopping right now, I have 6 shopping bags & they are all really heavy. I haven't quite spent all my money but Im not going to share it at all, I have a fake tan & you look dirty".

That is all that comes to mind. About half of the time I know I can do my job & the other half human kind really gets me down.. Its been 10 days now & I want to fire bomb the human population on slightly less than I did in my previous job. The upside is that when someone is cool, when I have done my job well, I feel good & a little more sunshine is let in.

To Be continued...

sunburn part 1

Well I wont be cutting my fringe (bangs) till my super cool sunburn goes away. Its not from my fringe but from my purple hat. Lame.

Kinda bummed today, Didn't get a sign up again & that makes me feel bad. Although I did good last week on the 2 days I worked I have done bad this week so far. Tomorrow is Wednesday though & that feels better. We will be on the royal mile too which is a first!

Thankful for the awesomeness of my Hubs, he is making lots o tasty food for me & holding down the chores.

Now if my forehead would stop burning...

NEW JOB!!

I got my new job! I am a charity fundraiser, currently fundraising for deaf children in the UK! I am that person on the street that people (including myself) are trying to avoid. I got hissed at yesterday in a Gollum like way by the very first person I approached!

I dont't really have a hard time approaching people, Im pretty chatty in general & used to "spare change" a lot when I was way way younger,for beer money. I consider myself to be experienced more or less.

Today was my 2nd day & Im now starting to get "behind" the charity, not that I wasn't before but I think I was pretty bombarded with facts & statistics from the training. Now I am hungry for more info & also eager to start learning sign language, not sure when I will have time though what with my new food blog! Just kinda kidding, I feel as if I need to know more in order to do my job better, and more honestly too.

The other thing that happen today is that I figured out that most of these people DO have time, almost all of them are just shopping or walking up & down the High street. Most of the people with loads of shopping bags that look all fancy pants that "don't have time" are full of it, they are the ones I think I have the hardest time approaching. I need to make it my goal to get there, but times are still young & I have done well so far so I cant complain. My point is that I had a lot of ideas about the charity fundraisers & a whole lot of them are wrong!

So next time, at least stop & listen- they might just win you over, and for real-they are not asking for that much & they are legit!